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Thursday, May 12, 2011
FREEEEEEEEEDOM. HAHAHA. Honestly the Physics paper was easier than I expected;I am now confident of passing. ANYWAY WHO CARES HAHA. Hols till next Wednesday ZOMG.
Can shop/walk slowly/read/surf net w/o worrying about not enough time to mug.
NO NEED TO MUG. For a while at least. BOOKS, HERE I COME!
Ytd I came home, slept till 7pm. Exam season I would hv hated myself for doing that;
Now, IDK LALALA. I always knew I was tired, really tired. But never actually known;
How tired I was. Now I do. I'm exhausted. I feel like dropping dead and sleeping.
Not the exhausted tired or mentally tired. Just feel like I need a lot of sleep.
On the less boring side, I went out today :D Woke at 8.45am XD Plaza Singapura with Lisa :D
Haha shouldve asked PY too XD Bought stuff, browsed ard :D Gosh the guiltless freedom.
Wasnt crowded so early thankfully. Shopped later at JP with PY. 10 bucks budget XD
Both locations I had a fixed list of stuff to get lol. And didnt get anything extra;
See I so self controlled :D Anyway, want to share some stuff.
Recently, due to not going to church (I used exams as excuse, but really, I dont want to go)
So now, exams are over, and I still keep forgetting why I go to church. I'll force myself to go this Sunday.
Yeah I know my faith isnt strong. But now its better :D Thanks to Have A Little Faith;
By Mitch Albom (wrote Tuesdays With Morries/ The 5 People We Meet In Heaven)
Some excerpts in 'Read More'. DOnt worry its not only for Christians;
An inspiring read for non-Christians too.
Asdfghjkl I feel like going to the zoo. And play at the play area there LOL.
No school. I can write and read and write and read some more. And draw. And shop.
And spend more time doing impt stuff X)
Especially the bolded parts. It's not fantastic english, but they are beautiful.
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"If you ask me, and you should, why this wonderful, beautiful child--who had so much to give--had to die, I can't give you a rational answer. I dont know. "
"But in a commentary to the Bible, tradition tells us that Adam, our first man, was supposed to have lived longer than any man, a thousand years. He didn't. Our sages, in quest of an answer, related the following:
"Adam begged God to let him see into the future. So the Lord said, 'Come with me.' He took him through the celestial chambers, where the souls that were to be born awaited their turn. Each soul was a flame. Adam saw some flames burn purely, some barely flicker. "
" Then he saw a beautiful flame, clear, strong, golden orange, and healing. Adam said, 'Oh Lord, that will be a great human being. When shall it be born?'
"The Lord replied, 'I'm sorry, Adam, but that soul, as beautiful as it is, is destined not to be born. It has been preordained that it will comit sin and tarnish itself. I have chosen to spare it the indignity of being besmirched.'
"Adam pleaded, 'But Lord, man must have someone to teach and guide him. Please, do not deprive my children.'
"The Lord gently answered, 'The decision has been made. I have no years left to allocate to him.'
"Then Adam boldly said, 'Lord, what if I am willing to bestow on that soul some of the years of my life?'
"And God answered Adam, saying, 'If that is your wish, that I will grant.'
"Adam, we are told, died not at 1,000, but at 930 years. And eons later, there was a child born in the town of Bethlehem. He became a ruler over Israel and a sweet singer of songs. After leading his people and inspiring them, he died. And the Bible concludes: 'Behold, David the King was buried after having lived for 70 years.'
"My friends, when sometimes we are asked why does someone perish, someone so young in age, I can only fall back on the wisdom of our tradition. It is true that David did not live long for his day. But while he lived, David taught, inspired, and left us a great spiritual legacy, including the Book of Psalms. One of those Psalms, the twenty-third, is read sometimes at funerals."
"The Lord is my sheperd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul...
"Is it not better to have known Rinah, my daughter, for four years, than not to have known her at all?"
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"In the book of Acts, we read that Paul- after his conversion- people distrusted him because he used to persecute the church, but now he praised it. 'Is this the same guy? Can't be! Nuh-uh.' ...It's amazing how folks can't see you, 'cause they want to keep you in that past. Some of our greatest problems of ministering to people is that they knew us back before we knew the Lord- "
"Yes it is!"
"The same thing with Paul... They saw him... They couldn't believe that this man's from Jesus, because they looked at his past-"
"That's right!"
"They just looked at his past. And when we're still looking at ourselves through our pasts, we're not seeing what God has done. What he can do! We're not seeing the little things that happen in our lives-"
"Tell it now."
"When people tell me that I'm good, my response is, 'I'm trying.' But there's some people that know me from back when- anytime I make that trip from New York- and when they head I'm a pastor of a church, all of a sudden, it's like 'I know you gettin' paid, boy. I know you.'"
He paused. His voice lowered.
"Now, I say. You knew me. You knew that person, but you don't know the person that I'm trying to become."
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The Reb once did a sermon on how the same things in life can be good or evil, depending on what, with free will, we do with them. Speech can bless or curse. Money can save or destroy. Science can heal or kill. Even nature can work for you or against you: fire can warm or burn; water can sustain life or flood it away.
"But nowhere in the story of Creation," the Reb said, "do we read the word 'bad'. God did not create bad things."
So God leaves it to us?
"He leaves it to us," he replied. "Now, I do believe there are times when God clenches his fist and says, 'Ooh, don't do it, you're gonna get yourself into trouble.' And you might say, well, why doesn’t God jump in? Why doesn’t he eliminate the negative and accentuate the positive?
“Because, from the beginning, God said, ‘I’m gonna put the world into your hands. If I run everything, then that’s not you.’ So we were created with a piece of divinity inside us, but with this thing called free will, and I think God watches us every day, lovingly, praying we will make the right choices.”
Do you really think God prays? I asked.
“I think prayer and God,” he said, “are intertwined.”
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I used to think I knew everything. I was a ‘smart person’ who ‘got things done,” and because of that, the higher I climbed, the more I could look down and scoff at what seemed silly or simple, even religion.
But I realized something as I drove home that night: that I am neither better nor smarter, only luckier. And I should be ashamed of thinking I knew everything, because you can know the whole world and still feel lost in it. So many people are in pain – no matter how smart or accomplished – they cry, they yearn, they hurt. But instead of looking down on things, they look up, which is where I should have been looking, too.
Because when the world quiets to the sound of your own breathing, we all want the same things: comfort, love, and a peaceful heart.
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There are more beautiful passages in the book. Not fantastic in the same sense as HP;
But it's good for selfreflection and improvement. Very touching too. It's all real.
Anyway, sth I wanted to share, not Mitch Albom related:
"I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together."
By Lisa Kleypas