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Jacelyn. The slightly deranged teenager getting ready for the zombie apocalypse, also addicted to sugary/sweet stuff and junk food. MLIA.
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Love to life.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Last week had Open House prep. Open House on Saturday. Both tiring but fun :D
Prep spent more time with the booth, setting up stuff and hanging Carbon allotropes.
Fullerene almost drove me nuts. Once dropped almost directly in front of Mr Murali;
Others drop a few times too .____. I forgot what's so nice about prep, but I ended up happy XD
I was kinda a bitch for a while I guess. Was unreasonable oh well. Probably due to fatigue. Ah yes, Peach tea X)

Saturday Open House! Had a chance to read Have A Little Faith for about half hr \m/
Did whole day... Can't rmb how, but somehow I kena Lab Girl LOL. Many times, only me prep chemicals...
If not prep, then delivering the chemicals. Pretty tiring, but I enjoyed it :D
Screwed up more than I would like to admit though :\ Sorry... Surya my assistant for a while XD
Saw Lisa, WH and Anders at Math booth. MJ came lab disturb lol. PY and some folks visit :D
Ze Xuan and Shi Yi both so imba haha. Jia Jun scam until xian XD Ahh didnt get to play with Liquid N2...
I didnt do any demo... Only explain a bit when I unknowingly land up in front of the demo.
As the day progressed, I didnt get as tired as anticipated, but I was in slight unrest;
Ah well, but the day was great X) Even though the weather was not haha.

Monday's Friday's timetable, which means, Physics and Chem (and EL but who cares)
AND NO IH OR HMT HAHA. Had Math makeup though. Anders climbed into the aircon class;
Through the window. Monkeys joking ard as usual. KOI KOI KOI never tasted to nice X)

Today. NAPFA. Shuttle Run A, Sit Up B, Pull Up... just pass, gonna retake :x
The rest next week la sad. And the shit is, Teacher wants us to rereun 2.4km.
OH THE BLOODY JOY. All the classes she take. She say someone in 203 cheated D:
She xiao or what Idk la. 1st sad news of the day. Actually 2nd. 1st when in the morning;
When Ms Chua told me Chem A3 due on Thurs. Instead of next Tues. 203's expressions. D:
On the bright side, Math test was easier than I anticipated. Can pass :D Bio was ok too;
Prac results are... Pretty cool XD Recieved the 3rd upsetting news of the day too.
Ah wells. Overslept in the afternoon too. Shit I need to stop wasting time.
Madhu is quite amazed at my current attitude too. The ultimate IDGAF attitude XD
She listed all the test/assignments/etc to me and I was like, IDGAF! Exaggerated manner :D
She'll be all stressed out sometimes and list the shit out to me, then I'll turn to her;
And be like, "Do I look like I give a damn?" Like she told me she squished an ant.
I'm quite amazed too. I'm not more slack than usual, I'm just not stressing out;
Strangely. The only negative emotions I hv nowadays is slight irritation/sadness.
Been more optimistic too XD Hmm how the little things do such big changes.

Wednesday must go Speech Day rehearsals cuz I pon Monday's D: (Madhu, MJ and JB also LOL)
At least get to skip HMT. But IH too... I hope no makeup lessons lol. Asfghjkl me no like Mrs Lim.

Now. Idk how I feel. A little like crying, a little like screaming.
A little like getting a hug. Now that I can change anything. I'm just not cut out.
Screw this emo bullshit. I can always try next time, I guess.
I just thought I stood a chance. Screw expectations. Screw the effort I put in.

I'll get over it. Like all my past failures. Shit got real. Bring it on.

I'm a happy girl. Yes I am. Ain't no shit gonna change that.


I want a girl that doesn't look perfect so I can love her for more than that. She can have blemishes in her body so I'll have something to look past when I love her. It will mean more to both of us if she doesn't look perfect.

I want a girl that doesn't have a perfect personality. I want her to have problems that we can work through together. And someone to help me work through mine. Our relationship will mean more to both of us if we can look back at the things we made it through together. We can look back at how we have both grown stronger and closer to each other.

I want someone to enjoy good times with. To laugh together and make memories that we can laugh at for the rest of our lives. Inside jokes. Maybe a few things we did imperfectly and got embarrassed in front of other people because of it. Things we can tease each other about.

I want someone who will get my jokes. Someone who can make her own as well.

Someone I get along with and feel comfortable talking about anything with.

Guys always talk about wanting the perfect girl. I don't want that. I ask for imperfection. Love means more when it is given in spite of some things.

If you are the perfect girl, I'm not interested in you. I'm not perfect so it wouldn't be fair to you if we got together.

Imperfection is all I ask for in an imperfect world.
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Came across long ago from here. Rmb-ed about it recently for some reason. Fairly interesting :)



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