Speech Day / Roll away from me. / Love to life. / Till forever ends. / Can you whisper. / We all wanna know. / Tedious / For the love of my brain cells, WHY. / Good start. I guess. / Capturing. /

Judas. Again, Christianity related. I think I kinda screwed up this week lol. Oh well. Who cares.

Tuesday was the NAPFA retest. Which I'm not very happy about but what can I do.
Its like, all my stations are As and Bs and then Incline Pull Ups comes along and throws me an E.

I cant even get a silver what is this. 15 minutes after PE was Chem test, which I screwed;

Then Bio quiz on Prostista and spelling on that too. Which I screwed too. Cuz all on same day wth.

After sch stayed to do the English Proj, which I know Madhu's grp finish alr no need suan ok XD

Sigh. I'm done but needa print out. Val was camping right outside class doing Chem;

And WH was being extra and taking photos of like, everyone he sees. His camera so imba can.

Wednesday DV wasnt that interesting. But has a English test afterwards. Which I screwed.

1) I wrote super short.

2) No time check/ reread

3) Wrote in 3rd person (I think can, but some say cannot leh)

4) My storyline is screwed anyway

5) I was hungry (No relations but whatever. I'm hungry now too.)

IH was a pop quiz which I screwed cuz I couldnt figure how to answer the qn. Sigh whatever.

HMT was bloody essay writing which I chionged cuz if dont hand up cannot leave D:

There was ACE too, as usual. Somehow I am getting Mentoring mixed with ACE and vice versa.

Maybe if either was more interesting I'll rmb which is which. Maybe I keep mixing them up;

Cuz usually I'm doing my own work, staring out of the window or throwing stuff out of it;

With Matt hahaha. Shhhh. Really entertains us. Sense of achievement too lol. So warped.

Anyway, ACE was reflection writing on conflicts but I dont think I've any conflicts;

LOL my life is so perfect. NOT. I just dont tend to get into conflicts nowadays I guess.

I'm afraid of them. Emotionally taxing, relationship straining and whatnot.

Guess that's why I tend to apologize so often meh. Anyway, I didnt really write about a conflict;

Just an emotionally distressing moment. Which Lisa read about. Ah well. At least Math was ok.

Idk. In the course of the day I was worrying. A particular scene kept replaying in my head;

The same word echoed nonstop. I feel bad. I feel like the failure I've always been. Whatever.

So today, Thursday. Last sch day of the week! Tmr is Good Friday yeah. But still going to sch...

Mentoring was usual stuff, me and Matt entertaining ourselves. And a little Math.

Art was working on our Final Assignment. Mine's going pretty well I guess. Glad with it :D
WJ's one so imba. She's not even finished but if she hands up now still sure A+. Yes, that imba.

HMT we had spelling, which I'm certain I'll fail. No doubt. It's just how badly I'll fail. Prob very.

She returned the test ytd. And announced to the class that she was upset with me. Lol tyvm.

Obv I wasnt listening as she blabbered to me about how disappointed she was with my score;

And how such a good girl she thought I was blahblah. IDGAF lol. I passed. Happy enough.

Math was more revision. Oh ya this week she returned us test 2. Ave score in class is 24.5 I think.;

And across lvl is 2 marks higher. I got 29 hoho. But I screwed the previous so my ave still low heh.

After sch, worked in Library with WJ, Tiew and YJ. The guys... Sigh. Anyway still cant finish.

Oh well. That's why meeting up later (it's 1.37am now oh no.) Helped WJ do her SC app form...

It was as if I'm doing it for myself. Fyi, I'm not applying. She asked me to help so I did :)

Still reluctant to try leadership roles. Pri sch's was a bit too much. I dont think I'm cut out. Maybe I am. Who knows. Who cares.

Stoned in the canteen afterwards when Jaryl and RS came along, both obv eating. Boys XD

Was somehow more exhausted than usual at home. Till I fell asleep bleh. Till 11.50pm I think.

Goodness I feel bad. So much time wasted. Not to mention I missed a chance.

There goes my night-time-cheer-up. Missing badly already.

Idk. I want to apologise to everyone. Maybe not everyone. Just a lot of folks.

Madhu, for scaring the shit out of you countless times each day.

203, for bearing the brunt of my insanity whenever I'd too much/little chocs.

Whoever I'd pissed when the above statement happened.

Tiew, for locking your phone for like, 2 or 3 hrs.

I know there's more and I'm really sorry for everything. Tell me, I'll make up for it.

Last but not least.

You (you'll know if it's you), for not telling you what happened. For letting you feel bad.

For falling asleep when you were waiting. For not being better. For lots of things really.

And.

Myself. For being such a damned failure. For being so weak and stupid.

At least Maroon 5 is performing on the 25th April. And Exams will come and go. And its the hols.

Which I dont wanna think about since theyre not here yet. Who knows what'll happen then.