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Day 26. Upset.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
I'm upset. Very upset.
Not upset as in angry upset, but sad upset.
Disappointed upset. Very.
And it has nothing to do with the damn bike;
Nor Helen, whose post I shall discuss.
At least it's a good distraction. I'm very upset.
Maybe it's my fault. Damnit. I'm just never good enough.
Day 26- Your definition of love.
Damnit so chim ar? I'm like 12, ok. Going 13. But still...!
I think it depends on what you love. Human, animals, objects, actions.
I can say I love this person's smile, but it doesn't mean I love him.
If you love an object, can branch out into 2 possibilities;
You lvoe it because it is physically attractive (looks/smells/feels nice);
Or because it symbolises/represents an event/person.
If it is the latter, then one doesn't really 'love' the object.
...Ok shit, what am I doing. My head's a little screwed up. Too upset for this.
Screw all that. .
Love... Is a feeling. Just like hate etc. But hate, can be described simple as a very strong dislike.
Love, cannot. I feel that I am unable to truly describe it with words. But shall give it a try.
Reckon it changes from person to person. Depends on experience, no?
Love, is when I taste something sweet, fresh, cold in my mouth?
Love is when I do my best and surpass my expectation.
Love is when I am in trouble and my friends help me sincerely and not out of pity or reward.
Love is when the government gives the best to the people and not take advantage.
Love is when a gay couple stand up for their relationship.
Love is when a parent scolds his/her child for doing wrong, but feels his/her heart ripping in 2.
Love is when my favourite outfit is affordable and still in stock.
Love is when a guy doesn't treat his girlfriend/crush as an idol but as a very special human.
Love is when people care about as a human regardless of any differences.
Love is when you want to spend every waking moment with someone.
Love is when you accept a person regardless of his/her past.
Love, is when I have an unconditional relationship with my Father and knows He's always there for me.
Love is when we take care of the world we've been blessed with.
Love. Is just a word. Give a meaning to it!
So, Helen's post. Now, this post is not only meant for Helen.
Helen, Heaven might not be all unicorns and glitter. No one has been there, ya know.
It might be candyfloss land, it might be ponies and dinosaurs. Up to you to imagine.
All we know that we'll be very happy there. No sadness, no anger.
To some people, it might be a house of gold, but as you said, we'll get sick of it.
We, praising and worshiping God, isnt exactly God's instructions, it's the Bible.
The Bible was written by many people, how are we to believe? Now I must explain;
Jesus would go around talking, and many nice people would write what he said, down.
The Rabiis, many years later, would memorise those stuff and write them down;
To make sure they are correct, they would gather together and recite the stuff;
Correcting one another to make sure everyone's right.
People in the modern times, with too much time, would go dig these scrolls up.
And of course, many are similar, if not the same. Different people, many who dont know each other;
They accounts are very similar, because they saw the same thing.
Those very free people would then 'take the average' and compile the Bible.
And why so we worship God? He planted us on this world.
He gave us this world as our playground (which we have screwed up, unfortunately)
And we should be greatful (grateful?) Damn. Pardon my spelling.
And I have to agree with you on one point, there might be no point in being completely happy.
BUT. You said God cannot be perfect. Wrong. God's creation DOES NOT equal God.
Think. A super smart prodigy has a child. The child kena retarded (paiseh.)
Doesnt mean the parent is retarded. Ok I'm a 12, going 13 year old kid so pardon my immaturity;
Email me if you have some clarifications and enlightenment for me. Jacelyn_yp@yahoo.com.sg
Helen, I cant argue with you about Heaven, because I'm not there. But I've something for you.
Now, let's just assume, God isnt real. No such thing (though I believe there is)
I believe crime rates would go up. More wrongs would be done. Suicide rates would shoot up.
Many people's life and success depend on their belief in God.
Humans are weak. Some of us (including myself) need to believe in something;
Even if it might not be completely true. We need to be decieved a little. Believe life is worth living.
And this is all in the assumption God isnt true. Which he is, but I'm just saying, what if.
And as I said, I will not argue with you about Heaven. What are surprises for then?
How would you like it if I told you all about an awesome birthday surprise?
Today, I read Xiaxue's new blog post. And as usual, found it very interesting.
I do agree with a large portion of it, made a lot of sense.
It's their orientation, people like us have no say in it.
It's all about the majority. Most of us are well, straight, that's why many are against gays.
But imagine, if most of the world is gay, regardless of what the Bible say;
Then most of the world would be against straight people, no?
And I must agree, the extreme Christians are well, a little more delusional than the average Christian;
Which can be a bit... Scary, at times. And so are the means they used.
Also agree with the part about the shopping complex XD (going to be in Dover, is it?)
And the part where some pastors make use of people's faith to earn cashhh;
Kinda reminds me of the false phrophets of the past.
He said that he knew he was attracted to boys since he was like 11 or something but because his family are staunch Christians, he felt that it was wrong to feel this way. And so he never acted on his attraction towards dudes and kept lying to himself. He loved his ex girlfriend but was not sexually attracted towards her. And when she, erm, took off her clothes in his room wanting sex that was when he broke down and admitted to her, and himself, the next day that he was gay.As quoted from Xiaxue As she has pointed out, they are already in a great deal of pressure.
And obviously now he still has not come out to his parents. He said his dad will kill him and kick him out of the house. So imagine never being able to introduce your partner to your parents!
Gay people already have it pretty bad with coming to terms with themselves, realising they are different, not being able to get married, straight men being uncomfortable around them (for the guys), dads disowning them (also for gay dudes, not so much lesbians), not being able to hold hands publicly, cannot apply for HDB flats, being discriminated by relatives etc...
AND THEY SO DO NOT NEED PEOPLE LIKE CALLING THEM FREAKS AND TELLING THEM THEY CAN BE CHANGED BACK TO 'NORMAL'!
By trying to change gays it assumes that being homosexual is wrong in the first place but seriously have they considered who is going to design fabulous bags and shoes if gay people don't exist?!
Change? How can one change what they are attracted to? If gay conversion works then can we change a straight guy into liking boys? Yeah let's see that happening. Just like how I love pink and will not be persuaded into liking any other colour more!
I think that Christianity as a religious is generally good except when it comes to this extreme stance. And cheating people of their money using faith as an excuse to buy shopping complexes.
And fact: Many Christians who are gay kill themselves because they cannot come to terms with the fact that they are sinning and yet God is not changing them and making them right.
...Shit I'm really not thinking properly. I think I myself need help.
OMG MIKA PERFORMANCE! AAAHHHHH!
Anway, I'm ending off with something.
Sanity in a world of insanity, is insanity.