/th-dreamer

one sees clearly only with the heart

what is essential is invisible to the eye

Jac elyn. The slightly deranged teenager getting ready for the zombie apocalypse, also addicted to sugary/sweet stuff and junk food. MLIA.
Longer profile & list of links.

Would you show / Selfish (draft 1?) / Quick Snap-lock / Burn in the light. / Something Good Can Work. / We all do. / Catching Fire / When people start to listen / If people were rain. / Stereo Hearts /

Meow.

Friday, August 12, 2011

I don't want to design.

I don't want to write.

I don't want to compete.

I suck at graphic/video/everything designs anyway.

I suck at writing good stuff anyway.

I suck in the end anyway.

I find it funny how people tell you good job and work hard when you can hear in their voice and see in their expression that you've failed, you suck. I mean, seriously if I suck, then just tell me in the bloody face I don't need your damn pity. I've been shouted in the face in private, in front of a teacher, in front of a crowd of students and almost went through counselling. I'm strong enough to be told my work isn't good enough. I mean, I know my work isn't good enough to telling me good job kinda just makes things worse. Tell me it's not good enough and I'll leave you alone to find someone better. Then you won't have to keep the pretense up. Tell me you don't want me as a friend and I'll leave. So you don't have to be obliged to treat me as a friend when you hate every fiber of me. Tell me you don't want me alive and you won't see me again.

I don't need any sympathy.

I'm strong enough for the truth. I'm not that much of a little girl as I look.

Many people aren't how they look on the inside as on the outside anyway.

I'm tired of all the lies and pretenses.

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On another note I'm working on an argumentative essay without looking at the guidelines whatsoever. It's just an essay of how I think it should be.

Probably done over the weekend.

Topic is "People are hard to govern because they have too much knowledge." Lao Tzu.

one sees clearly only with the heart what is essential is invisible to the eye
Jac elyn. The slightly deranged teenager getting ready for the zombie apocalypse, also addicted to sugary/sweet stuff and junk food. MLIA. Longer profile & list of links.
Would you show / Selfish (draft 1?) / Quick Snap-lock / Burn in the light. / Something Good Can Work. / We all do. / Catching Fire / When people start to listen / If people were rain. / Stereo Hearts /
Meow. Friday, August 12, 2011 I don't want to design. I don't want to write. I don't want to compete. I suck at graphic/video/everything designs anyway. I suck at writing good stuff anyway. I suck in the end anyway. I find it funny how people tell you good job and work hard when you can hear in their voice and see in their expression that you've failed, you suck. I mean, seriously if I suck, then just tell me in the bloody face I don't need your damn pity. I've been shouted in the face in private, in front of a teacher, in front of a crowd of students and almost went through counselling. I'm strong enough to be told my work isn't good enough. I mean, I know my work isn't good enough to telling me good job kinda just makes things worse. Tell me it's not good enough and I'll leave you alone to find someone better. Then you won't have to keep the pretense up. Tell me you don't want me as a friend and I'll leave. So you don't have to be obliged to treat me as a friend when you hate every fiber of me. Tell me you don't want me alive and you won't see me again. I don't need any sympathy. I'm strong enough for the truth. I'm not that much of a little girl as I look. Many people aren't how they look on the inside as on the outside anyway. I'm tired of all the lies and pretenses. ----- On another note I'm working on an argumentative essay without looking at the guidelines whatsoever. It's just an essay of how I think it should be. Probably done over the weekend. Topic is "People are hard to govern because they have too much knowledge." Lao Tzu.