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This yr been having bad dreams pretty often. Been talking to myself more often too;

Lack of social communication. Being on FB doesnt mean I'm very social XD Anyway;

My grandma was over today. She was so gaunt. Been taking care of my older sis for 2 months;

In preparation for the A lvls, and both of 'em think my sis gonna repeat. She came to my room;

Talked me me a few times, went through my stuff and even asked to read my story she found.

She went on about what I'm the only hope in the family yadablahbookabfurhgoire.

My younger sis was in the last 30 in her lvl. My older sis is hopelessly addicted to Korean stuff.

All these stressing out my parents and grandma. I presume the last thing they want to know;

Is that their 'only hope' supposedly has OCD. My grandma almost cried talking to me;

My head was foggy today so I didnt respond much. Just nod and the occasional, Yeah.

I hope she gets well. My parents say she almost got a mental breakdown. Stress. Sigh.

She took care of me since I was really little (my parents were 'too busy'), so I'm close to her.

But dont like how she moves stuff around my room. Removed books and shifted stuff.

Hate it when my maid packs my room. Dang, I know it's bloody messy in here;

But everything is in the order I'm comfortable with. And gahh, when ppl talk about my room;

Say so many useless stuff, I feel like feeding them some blended lard and Yeti toenails.

Somethings here hv no use YET. But I like them in my room.

Somehow she piled books onto my bed. Thus me being on my bed now, movement is restricted.
Was reading InkDeath, but later switched to some GP book. Strange topics I would say.

Cloning, Globalisation, Water Shortage, The Environment. Quite interesting.

Reinforced the idea into me that the world is so wonderfully screwed. Saw WikiLeaks today;
But didnt read through. Done reading Vigilant Citizen's new articles. Very informative...

Strangely and horribly tired these few days. Most of the time I'm locked in my room.

There you have it, lack of human contact. I love books more than my own kind XD

Christmas is coming, so is TackleCamp. Dad's in China. There's a crapload of drama in Korea;

America is gonna be busy. Hafta settle SK and WikiLeaks, among the usual problems.

I believe in depopulation. And euthanasia. I'm not inhumane, I'm being practical.

The New World Order thinks 12 out of 13 people shouldnt be alive. I'm not that extreme;

But there's too much ppl around. And irresponsibility is increasing. Yes ppl are smarter;

But what is knowledge w/o wisdom? A one way ticket to a significant amt of bullcrap.

I was going on about what I found out about the world, what I've learnt, found out and placed tgt;

To some ppl, but they either dont care or tell me I've been studying too much.

Hello? Your food is being poisoned, your head brainwashed, blood contaminated;

And you bloody tell me I'm studying too much?! Well, I suppose you wouldnt mind if;

Your vaccines are being stuffed with mercury and the elites are planning to make vaccines compulsory;

For infants. Every but their own. And more health policies are being written by food giants;

The very same that poison your food with shitloads of chemicals that shouldnt be there.

And sure, doctors are being bribed and occult symbols surround us almost everywhere.

But they don't matter to you right? As long you get entertainment and who-knows-what.

Yes I prefer looking at matters regarding psychological complications rather than physical complications.

I know the world is screwed up already. We're being attacked physically by nature;

But seriously, cant we all at least fend ourselves against the psychological weapons?

One danger less better than no danger less. Life is pretty ok, a jar of Nutella gone.